Why do I spend 30% of my time working the kind of job that I don't like; 30% of my time doing nothing (sleeping); and 40% of my time trying to make myself believe that I am living the kind of life that I really want. For a while I really convinced myself that I was living the kind of life that I wanted and more so the life that I loved. But as I became more aware of who I really was, I knew that I still have to find that life that I really loved. Getting into the habit of being AWARE of something is a very powerful act. Today, I can really say that I am living the kind of life that I love.